The Compound told you that you needed to be on the lookout for people who might need to be saved. Did you ever try to do as they suggested?
Yes one time I did try to help someone.
Titanium and Camo are getting off work and when they walk by a park bench, Titanium notices Absolon sleeping on the bench. He feels sorry for him because it looks like he's homeless. There is a duffel bag and a guitar case sitting under the bench.
"Camo, wait. I want to talk to him. Maybe he needs a place to stay."
"You want to drag him into our hell? I don't know if that's a good idea, Titanium."
"It's better than this bench, at least we have beds."
Camo gives in and lets Titanium try to convince Absolon to come with them. Just then, Absolon stirs and sits up on the bench. Titanium approaches him and says hi.
"Um, I was wondering if you wanted to come stay with us, there are beds where we live."
"No. I don't want to stay there."
"But you've come to the party before..."
"I was starving, so I went there for free food, and nothing else. No way would I ever stay there."
"It's a bad place, a very bad place."
"I just thought-"
"Thought what?! That you're all high and mighty and I'm broken because I'm sleeping on a park bench?! Think you need to save me from my life of filth?! Fuck you! Leave me alone!"
Absolon picks up his belongings and walks away. Titanium is stunned by Absolon's harsh words and a tear rolls down his cheek. Their first conversation went well, but now it looks like his crush hates him and even worse, he feels like his crush hates him.
At that moment, when you asked him to stay, did you think he needed to be saved, or were you genuinely trying to help him?
At the time I was still pretty brainwashed, so even though I convinced myself I was just trying to give him a place to sleep, it's possible I might have been thinking his life needed saving.
The next day, Titanium is still shaken up from his encounter with Absolon.
"Camo, why was he so mean? I was just trying to help him."
"Maybe he doesn't think he needs help. Either that or he doesn't want any."
"He sleeps in the park. I hate that. No one should have to sleep outside, especially not him. Camo, is this place really that bad? I know there's a lot of rules, but we always have a place to sleep."
"Dude, you're starting to sound like Zinfandel. Chill. Absolon will be fine. I got the feeling if anyone tried to do anything to him, he would kick their ass. It might suck that he's homeless, but at least he's free."
"Camo, you don't think we're free?"
Camo shakes his head no in answer to Titanium's question. He then stands up quickly and grabs Titanium's arm, leaning close and speaking softly.
"No talking about that. Not here."
How did The Compound want you to deal with people who didn't want its help?
We were supposed to try to persuade them no matter what. The Compound was convinced it was the answer to the real world's problems.
Titanium raises his hand and asks a question that makes Camo nervous. He hopes Titanium won't give away too many details about their encounter with Absolon because the last thing he wants is for Absolon to be stuck here.
"Uh, Miss Teacher, I saw a stranger who had nowhere to go, and I invited him to stay here, but he yelled at me. Does that mean I didn't show my kindness correctly?"
"What did he say when he yelled at you?"
"He asked me if I thought he was broken. He also accused me of thinking that I was better than him and he acted like he didn't want to be helped."
"Titanium, you are better than him because you have not been tainted like he has. If he didn't want help, he just doesn't know it. Most of The Strangers are blinded by their impurities. Don't worry, you didn't do anything wrong."
Zinfandel is in her room, sitting on her bed. She has been unable to stop thinking about her intimacy experience. She wonders if Titanium and Camo have had their turn at intimacy yet because they have been acting normally. Maybe Camo has since he was quiet today and not being mean to the teacher. Does that mean he had a good experience? Why did he get to have a good experience? Zinfandel gets angry. Camo is such a jerk, he deserves to have bad things happen to him. Zinfandel pulls out her walkie talkie and stares at it. She can't talk to Barry because he is the problem. She wonders if the teacher would be a good person to talk to. The teacher always understands her and gives explanations that Zinfandel can comprehend.
"Miss Teacher? Are you there? This is Zinfandel. I was wondering, can I talk to you about something?"
"Hello, Zinfandel. Where are you, my dear?"
"In my room."
A few minutes later, Zinfandel hears a knock on her door. It is Petunia answering her request to have a talk. Petunia smiles and sits down on Zinfandel's bed.
"Miss Teacher, do you remember the boy who I was impure with on the bench? I got him as an intimacy partner and he hurt me."
"Hurt you? Did he strike you?"
"No. He hurt me when he was being intimate with me. I asked him to shift his positioning and go a little slower when he first started, but he didn't listen. He just pushed all the way and it hurt a lot. That's not the way it should feel, is it?"
"No Zinfandel, he should have listened to your request. Are you still in pain?"
"A little sore, but it's getting better."
"You should go to the clinic, they will help you. I will deal with him."
I've been living on the street for a little over a year now. I bought this cheap guitar with the money I stole from Dad before I left. Playing for tips isn't really bringing in much money. I never should have gone to that stupid Compound to get food. I can't believe Titanium lives there. I always thought it was weird that he was wearing a t-shirt while swimming when I saw him on the beach that day, but now it makes sense. He's just another brainwashed idiot. Too bad he's a cute brainwashed idiot.